My personal optimal well-being probably is not where it should be. Physical well-being I would rate at a 7. I for the most part feel pretty healthy, but I know that I have issues I need to work on. I could always eat better and exercise more. This is a long time struggle I am having, but everyday it gets a little bit easier to get where I need to be. Spiritual well-being I would rate a 8. I am agnostic and I feel perfectly fine where I am at spiritually in my life. I rated myself an 8 because I feel I can always learn more and do more to be able to achieve more spirituality in my life. Psychological I would rate myself at a 3, maybe a 4 on a good day. I suffer from PTSD, and I have stopped taking medication and have not been to therapy in quite some time. This really affects my personal life, especially with my husband. Everyday is a struggle to get out of bed and live my life. I am currently trying to get myself back into therapy, and see what I can do about not taking medications. I do not like my judgement feeling clouded, and that is how I feel when I am on medication.
My goal for physical is to pick one day to eat whatever my heart's content is and also to implement at least two days of walking into my regiment. My goal for spirituality is to educate myself more on different types of religions and spirituality to see where I may fit. My psychological goal is to not let the darkness take over me, its my mind and my body and I am in control of it.
For my physical goal, I am going to try to take some fun classes that involve exercise. Maybe a belly dancing class or yoga. I am keeping a food journal and that is really helping me with making better decisions about eating. Spirituality I want to implement more mediation. I also do a tapping process sometimes that helps calm my mind of unwanted thoughts. Psychological, I am keeping a journal. My journal helps me to gather my thoughts and once they are on paper, I feel they have left my body.
Exercise:
I found this exercise to be VERY helpful this week. This week was very stressful for me, I was married on Halloween. It was stressful because I had to leave out of town for work, and I had to leave the rest of my wedding planning to others. I have had a headache everyday this week, and my eye will not stop twitching. When I returned from out of town, I had what I call my "mini breakdowns". I cry profusely to the point of where I start to hyperventilate. The stress of the wedding is over, but I still have my emotional dealings with my PTSD. My favorite parts of this exercise were the beams of color. I imagined this as I was laying on the floor and participating in this exercise. It reminded me of a the shield I put up daily to deal with my emotions that come from being an Empath as well. It was just a relaxing, yet informative way to gain knowledge on what the colors meant.
I am excited for next week and to see what exercise we have next.
--Sophie
I truly enjoy reading your blog! Pure honesty and I love that. I too keep a food journal and that definitely helps me stay on track. I also love taking yoga classes, as I feel very refreshed both physically and spiritually after a yoga session. I truly hope you go try a class and then blog about your experience. I have thought belly dancing would be fun, but I have never tried it. I am also agnostic and would love to learn about different religions. I did go to a Buddhist meditation a few months back and loved it. I think going to different church services is a fun way to experience different religions. I took my children to a Latin Mass at the Catholic church and that was unforgettable. Take Care and big Congrats on your wedding!!
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your story! and congratulations!!! I don't know where you are located but yoga is amazing for trauma or PTSD. Some areas have classes geared towards this solely. Even if you could get to a basic yoga class and start I think you will see amazing results. My friends husband had severe PTSD and started yoga and actually became a teacher because for the first time he was able to step out of what was going on. These are just suggestions coming from a yoga teacher that has seen it benefit many from trauma :) ! Also meditation is an amazing tool to start to relax the mind when it begins to get out of control. I hope you continue to try different things to get you to a place of peace.
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ReplyDeleteI found this exercise a little unnerving. I t seemed a little strange to me but I think it could be helpful for me in the future. I plan to keep at it till it does get easier for me.
Jay
Hi Sophie,
ReplyDeleteLoved your blog, you came across very honest. I tried the exercise this week but I was disturbed by my son. I have been trying for some time now to be able to stay still and calm for a few minutes. I want to try to make meditation part of life but I am a mother on the run. The keeping of a journal is a great idea.
Lynthia
Hi Sophie.
ReplyDeleteWe had similar ratings when it came to physical and spiritual. Physically, I feel that I have the tools that I need to improve my appearance, but I often lack motivation. Sorry to hear that you are struggling with your psychological well-being. I can definitely relate. I have had my ups and downs. Best of luck to you!
Sophie,
ReplyDeleteCongrats on your wedding!
I'm glad the exercise helped you to relax. Something that has helped me as of recently is an app that I found called "Headspace" its a meditation app, that lets you do 10 minutes of it at a time everyday and it builds up from there. I really like it and I think it is making me more relaxed. I suffered with PTSD as well after I came home from Iraq and I know how hard it can be to cope.
Frank
Sophie, I believe we all can improve in one way or another. I'd like to say congrats to you and your husband and that I am happy it's a new week and you are starting fresh! I'd like to say that when the going gets rough just know that you have the perseverance to get up and make things happen. Life is too short to let it pass us by. I hope that you seek whatever it is that you need to get going and that you fight that darkness until it goes away. I am sure your love will defeat it. Keep pushing and take one day at a time.
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